Their Words

That one person your whole life you should be able to talk to is never there. Never complimenting you .... you get that 4.0 and they ask why you couldn't get it before. Your told you stupid daily, told you are fat, you are never dressed quite the right way. Your never going to be like the others. At least that's what they want you to believe. Then that day comes and they tell you they can't trust you ... as if you could trust them. They are only words no big deal right? Only problem is you've been trying your whole life to please them trying to gain their trust, and never getting that. Never quite remembering what they said but the pain is there like a whole in your soul.

I wish that I could protect every child from this pain I have felt. I wish i could make them realize how they make me feel. I like to think getting away will help. Then other times I feel like I am just running from my problems. Or maybe I just know that this is the only thing that will save my relationship with them. All i know is i CAN'T let them hold me back anymore. for one thing they will not always be there to tell me what to do and how to do it. It's getting closer and closer to the time for me to move out... Am I ready I guess we'll find out. If not I hope that I can make the best of things. All I know is I can't give up that will only prove all there words to me.

So as of right now I am pledging to never give up till i have that diploma in my hand. No matter what it takes I will get it. If I should die before I get it at least I died trying. I will not give up on me like they have.