a picture of something that has the biggest impact on ME

Burn Camp

     I don't know what I would do without this camp. It's the one time of year I get to get together with a group of people that have gone through the same stuff I have gone through. 

    I wish I could make other people realize what the camp is all about. I want them to know that if I could reverse and go back I would do anything to avoid being burned. I may enjoy the camp but it is not worth what I had to go through to get there. I can't tell you how many times I've had people tell me the wish they could burn themselves just to go to the camp. I can promise anyone that thinks that it is so not worth it. 

    I am very great full for the people that started the camp and I will never forget the late night camp fires talks. They helped me realize I am not a burn victim I am a SURVIVOR. I choose to grow from my injuries not sit around saying "why me."

BCR :)

MY favorite super hero and why

Batman

Because it's Batman and hes the coolest enough said.

A picture of somewhere I've been

 

For my parents 25th anniversary they took all of us kids on a cruise to Ensenada, Mexico. I'll never forget that trip was way fun and met lots of new and fun people. It was nice to truely get away from the wordly things if even just for a week. Think it's one of the times I remember actually being happy.

A habit I wish I didn't have

No matter how hard I try I cannot break the habit of bitting my nails I've tried everything. I've had times where I don't bite them as much but without fail I start up again. Sometimes it gets so bad that my nails start to bleed. One solution is fake nails but with my job I can't have them and they are to expensive to get all the time.

A picture of ME and MY friends :)

 My best friends are my younger sisters we may fight alot but in the end I still love them. Oddly I miss having them around

Lysette and Sadie have been some of my best friends ever since I met them in the second grade . Though now that I have moved away I dont get much time to  see them but we still make as much time as possible to hang out :)

 Heather is Like my twin sister I never had though seems like ever since I switched High Schools we haven't gotten to see each other much. Especially now that she has moved away for college.

 Maranda is amazing even though we never get much time together the late night walks and just hanging out we did have I will never forget.

: D

 Me Alix and Heather will forever been known as the 3 musketeers will never forget the times we had together!

Kelsey, Clarissa, and Emily are pretty much like my younger sisters, love them to death.

The meaning behind MY blog name

I know my true blob name is My Life but I'm going to write the meaning behind "Taking life one step at a time" cause the my life is self explanatory...

I've had a hard life and if there is one thing I've learned no matter the amount of planning nothing will ever go perfect you have to take things how they come and make the best of it even if it its not what you had planned.



and sorry for all that follow my blog followers on taking so long to put day 2 up, my charger to my laptop broke so I had to wait till the new one came :)

picture and 15 interesting facts about ME



1.     I am afraid of driving. When I do drive I am constantly bitting on the inside of my lips. Don't know why I have this fear as I have never been in any serious accident, but I do.

2.     I have 11 siblings, five sisters and six brothers. Love my family to death and wouldn't trade it for the world.

3.     At age five (my mom always says I was four but I was five I know because I was in kindergarten at the time) my shirt caught on fire from a little Christmas candle I now have scars covering a fourth of my left arm as proof of my third degree burns that I got from that candle.

4.     I am sick about70% of the time. Sucky immune system I got here.

5.     I laugh uncontrollably at the word fork when I am tired. Don't know why I just do. :)

6.    I want to attend college in Vancouver, Canada to become a Pastry Chef.

7.    I have only had stitches once in my life. Learned my lesson not to kneel on chairs with my chin resting on the back and lean on them very quickly got a really nice gash on the bottom of my chin from that.

8.    I have only traveled out of Utah like 6 times that I can remember, and only been out of the country once. Pretty sheltered life I live I know :P

9.    If I could go anywhere in the world it would be South Africa.

10.  I am addicted to the Internet, I am constantly on it wither it be chatting or just surfing the Internet. Some of my best friends I have met through chat rooms call me crazy but yes I have met people in person that i met online.

11.  I am very very OCD when it comes to cleaning especially my room. I've even gone as far as color coordinating my closet :S

12.  I love reading I constantly have one if not two books that I am reading. Generally read anywhere from 3-6 books a week.

13.  In my spare time I love to draw dresses and according to friends and family I am very talented at it... who would of thought :)

14.  My favorite place in the whole world is this little cove area in my parents back yard with a stream running through it. When living at home that was the one place I could go to just stop and think with no one bugging me or telling me to do this or do that.

15.  I am a very closed person and have been my whole life. I bottle my emotions pretty well, sometimes it comes in handy others times not so much.

30 Days of ME :)

I saw this on a friends blog and thought it looked kinda fun! I hope that I will be able to do it without having internet at my home but I think if I plan it right I will be able to! Wish me luck! Oh and you don't have to read any of the posts! It is strictly for selfish purposes!



Day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 2- the meaning behind your blog name

Day 3- a picture of you and your friends

Day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been to

Day 6- favorite super hero and why

Day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 8- short term goals for this month and why

Day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days

Day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

Day 11- another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one

Day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- a picture of you and your family

Day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

Day 16- another picture of yourself

Day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them

Day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future

Day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- something you crave for a lot

Day 24- a letter to your parents

Day 25- what I would find in your bag

Day 26- what do you think about your friends

Day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- in this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- your favorite song

I used to...

I used to laugh till I Cried.
Now I cry till I can cry no more.

I used to believe in God.
Now I know there is no God.

I used to think there was nothing worse than death.
Now I see the lies in life are.

I used to believe in a Parents love for their child.
Now I wonder where is my love, from my parents.

I used to think the world was a happy place
Now I know the pain is only hidden behind smiles.

I used to believe in happily ever after.
Now I see it's everything but that.

I use to think talking it all out helped.
Now I wonder if anyone really hears and listens.

And all this I learned for what I ask.
Perhaps one day I will know.

Why Now??

Seven months ago I applied for a loan with Sallie Mae. Well just last week a few weeks before I was planning on leaving. I find out my cosigner had been denied. They couldn't tell me this months ago??? I guess things going as smoothly as they did were to go to be true. All I can do is apply for a different loan and hope to god it goes through if not I will be postponing my start date and keep applying for different loans. I am not giving up this is one of my one and only dreams and Im not going to let one thing crush that :). I just hope it happens sooner rather then later. Thanks to everyone that keeps me going when I feel like I've lost all hope. I don't know what i'd do without you there to keep me going:). I wouldn't be where I am today without you all. For all, that have told me I wont make it and have given up on me just wait I WILL make it.

Injustice or no?

please read all of this before you judge me....
my mom was reading this article: http://www.lifesitenews.com/ldn/2010/mar/10031114.html

I asked her what she was reading cause I was curious. she tells me what the article says then proceeds in saying "I think that was a good choice for the school to make"

I dont agree one bit and i let her know that then she sat there telling me im stupid and asked me if i would stick up for someone if they thought killing ppl was ok ... first of all that has nothing to do with sticking up for gay's and lesbian's they aren't hurting anyone else.

I have a gay cousin getting married in a few months and her and my dad has told all of us that they don't want us around him anymore cause he's a bad influence. This is one thing I have a HUGE problem with my cousin is my best friend and has always been. But god says to respect you parents right?I have a strong belief that hanging around gay's isn't going to turn you gay. It's not like that , nor do gay's want it that way .... they just want to be happy not having to hide who they are.

Isn't that what we have been taught our whole life be who we are and don't change for anyone or anything? Unless you are gay than you need to change. Does that sound just to you?


.....anyways i think i'll just stop there those are just my opinion's towards this particular thing.

Their Words

That one person your whole life you should be able to talk to is never there. Never complimenting you .... you get that 4.0 and they ask why you couldn't get it before. Your told you stupid daily, told you are fat, you are never dressed quite the right way. Your never going to be like the others. At least that's what they want you to believe. Then that day comes and they tell you they can't trust you ... as if you could trust them. They are only words no big deal right? Only problem is you've been trying your whole life to please them trying to gain their trust, and never getting that. Never quite remembering what they said but the pain is there like a whole in your soul.

I wish that I could protect every child from this pain I have felt. I wish i could make them realize how they make me feel. I like to think getting away will help. Then other times I feel like I am just running from my problems. Or maybe I just know that this is the only thing that will save my relationship with them. All i know is i CAN'T let them hold me back anymore. for one thing they will not always be there to tell me what to do and how to do it. It's getting closer and closer to the time for me to move out... Am I ready I guess we'll find out. If not I hope that I can make the best of things. All I know is I can't give up that will only prove all there words to me.

So as of right now I am pledging to never give up till i have that diploma in my hand. No matter what it takes I will get it. If I should die before I get it at least I died trying. I will not give up on me like they have.

Life Is About To Change..

in 4 months my life will change ... i'll be moving far away from family i'll be starting school in an unknown place to me ... im excited .. but unsure at the same time ... worried i guess you could say ... but i know it's what i need is to get away .. learn for my own what i believe what i dont believe ... not only that i need to pursue my dream of going to college out of the U.S. .. i got this opprotunity and jumped on it .. and i can say its probably been the scariest but best desicion of my life

It's the climb

There will ALWAYS be those trials in life the question is how are you going to let those trials effect you. Life wont always be easy but don't let that get in the way of your dreams. I am reminded of a song that is a perfect example of what to do The Climb by Miley Cyrus

"I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith"

If you fall get back up and start over.